Sunday Ramblings

Got up late, so having a very lazy daisy day. I was going in town to pick up my prescription but can't be bothered - tomorrow will do. Besides, I might be tempted to spend more money and I will need it more for my holiday.

It looks like it's a beautiful day out there, so may get out in the garden. I keep saying this...!

Like most people, I suspect, I long for warmer days when I can sit outside and enjoy the garden. I am thinking of getting another rescue dog, as it would be good company and get me moving more, to keep in trim. A smallish one would suit. It's a big undertaking, what with vet bills  etc, so serious thought must be given.

I do love dogs.

Friday Ramblings

Well, Valentine's day has come and gone - I need not have bothered clearing that shelf for all the cards!

Joking apart, I felt a bit sad because Paul and me completely forgot to buy each other a card last year, though we did go for a Valentine meal, as I recall. It never occurred to me then, it would be our last.

Going to see the patient (eldest daughter with broken leg) in Clapham later. Will take a few goodies.  I hope she'll soon be back on her feet.

It's my Granddaughter Kim's birthday today, 34. Makes me feel really old, as doesn't seem that long ago I was that age. Time is passing much too quickly for my liking. Let's hope my passport doesn't take much longer then!

Better wrap up later, as it is very frosty out there, but looks like another beautiful day.

I'm pleased with my new Poetry for Pleasure facebook page. Have had quite a few likes and comments. I added one new poem too.

Have a good day all.

Midnight Ramblings

Having one of those nights again where sleep is evading me, so time to blog methinks.

It is now Tuesday morning. I applied online yesterday afternoon, for my first ever passport.  It seemed to go quite smoothly, apart from them telling me that the passport photo I uploaded looked as if my eyes were partly closed. I explained that this is how they always are and I can't open them any wider, without it being uncomfortable. Don't these people make allowances for old age, for goodness sake!  Bloody silly computer I expect. Anyway it let me continue,with verification, sent off, for their scrutiny. Just have to send documents they ask for now. I expect it will take ages but I'm not in a rush.

Had a lovely birthday meal out, Saturday night with friends at The Peking Palace. I tried everything apart from squid - didn't much fancy that. The duck was lovely though.

Then on Sunday I had a lovely roast dinner round my youngest daughter's, so well spoilt. She and Tom bought me some gorgeous presents too.

Just one person missing from all this...he would have enjoyed it all too.
xx
❤

Sunday.

I have a feeling I won't sleep very well tonight.  I watched the finale of Les Miserables.  I have not read the book by Victor Hugo, so don't know how faithful this interpretation is, but anyhow, I really enjoyed it, especially Dominic West's superb performance.  Such a sad ending though and of course it reminded me of my own recent loss.

Some days I feel fine and cope very well. Other times I  miss Paul so much, I just want to be on my own to cry, on and off. Today is one of those days.

It will be my 77th birthday on Thursday and we would probably have celebrated it, by having a meal in Paul's Cafe.  How I miss those ordinary, simple little pleasures.

I still can't help thinking that if that nurse practitioner had done an ECG, she may have picked up an irregular heartbeat and he might have got treatment sooner. It's no good beating myself up over it though, as nothing will bring him back. I can't rewind the last few months - I wish I could.

To use some well worn platitudes, I will have to learn to live with it and hope time will heal my broken heart.

I downloaded an app and got some of my photos printed. I have framed one of our selfies, taken on holiday, plus the last ever photo of Paul that I took, with him sitting on a bench on the village green in August last year.  He looked so relaxed and well in that snap - hard to believe then, he only had months to live.

I miss you my love xx

Tuesday Ramblings.

I've spent quite a few days at home lately, partly due to feeling ill with some headachey, feeling yuk, sort of virus and partly due to waiting for various parcel deliveries - one being my new mobile.

I upgraded, as other one didn't seem to be compatible with some of my apps. Pleased with its performance so far and it has a better camera too.

I cooked a very healthy meal today -  pan- fried (not as posh as it sounds) salmon steak, with steamed green beans, carrots plus oven cooked potato wedges. Very tasty. Paul wasn't a great fan of fish, unless it was cod 'n chips, so I didn't bother much. He was much happier with red meat.  I miss him so much still, as it's so quiet here without that hearty laugh of his.   I usually have chicken or a pork chop on a Sunday, now it's just me,  unless dining with friends or my youngest daughter.

Anna, my eldest had another Xray today and they found another broken bone on the other side of her leg as they only did one side, even though she had complained it was hurting there also. Seems rather incompetent to me, especially as she works at the hospital. So much for looking after your own!  It will be a much longer recovery time now. I'm going over to see her later in the week, with some goodies to cheer her up.

I am hoping to meet my old workmates tomorrow, as I couldn't make it Monday. I hope the snow doesn't fall tonight. The buses through Springfield Drive are running erratically at the moment, as Anglian Water are digging up our end of Grange lane again,  due to another burst. Let's hope my bus turns up tomorrow.

Goodnight all - sweet dreams x

Thursday Ramblings.

I had a nice day in Kempston with my lovely friends. I wanted to look in the Barnados shop nr Sainsburys, but it was shut. Did a bit of shopping in Sainsburys and the market, then back to my friends house for lunch and later tea.

I am going on holiday to bonnie Scotland with them and more of their friends in March, so really looking forward to that. Paul would be pleased that I am finally going, as we had to cancel ours a couple of years ago,  re. problems with his foot due to diabetes.

It will be my first holiday there. I will enjoy it I'm sure. Just wish Paul could share it with me.

Sunday Ramblings.

I had a nice day over my friends in Kempston yesterday and stayed at theirs overnight. Good food and great company with them and two neighbours I hadn't met before , plus a couple we had previously met when Paul was alive. Neighbour Doreen was there too, so good to catch up with her. We all had a good laugh, especially with the wine flowing. Paul would have enjoyed the evening so much. My heart still cries for him in quiet, solitary moments as it's embarrassing to bawl in front of people  😤❤

Very icy first thing coming back home to Bromham this am, but I had left the heating on low, so bungalow was lovely and warm. Caught up with Casualty and a few other recorded programmes. Microwaved one of my Iceland Slimming World meals as forgot to get chicken out yesterday!  It was some king prawn, noodle, veggie thingy, but not bad. Then had just one mini strawberry viennetta - lovely.

Meeting my old Ashleigh House care home workmates tomorrow for our usual coffee and chat. My friend Sarah is still coping with the loss of her husband last August. Hard to imagine then, I would be in the same boat just a few months later.

Such is life..