Sunday Ramblings

Got up late, so having a very lazy daisy day. I was going in town to pick up my prescription but can't be bothered - tomorrow will do. Besides, I might be tempted to spend more money and I will need it more for my holiday.

It looks like it's a beautiful day out there, so may get out in the garden. I keep saying this...!

Like most people, I suspect, I long for warmer days when I can sit outside and enjoy the garden. I am thinking of getting another rescue dog, as it would be good company and get me moving more, to keep in trim. A smallish one would suit. It's a big undertaking, what with vet bills  etc, so serious thought must be given.

I do love dogs.

Friday Ramblings

Well, Valentine's day has come and gone - I need not have bothered clearing that shelf for all the cards!

Joking apart, I felt a bit sad because Paul and me completely forgot to buy each other a card last year, though we did go for a Valentine meal, as I recall. It never occurred to me then, it would be our last.

Going to see the patient (eldest daughter with broken leg) in Clapham later. Will take a few goodies.  I hope she'll soon be back on her feet.

It's my Granddaughter Kim's birthday today, 34. Makes me feel really old, as doesn't seem that long ago I was that age. Time is passing much too quickly for my liking. Let's hope my passport doesn't take much longer then!

Better wrap up later, as it is very frosty out there, but looks like another beautiful day.

I'm pleased with my new Poetry for Pleasure facebook page. Have had quite a few likes and comments. I added one new poem too.

Have a good day all.

Midnight Ramblings

Having one of those nights again where sleep is evading me, so time to blog methinks.

It is now Tuesday morning. I applied online yesterday afternoon, for my first ever passport.  It seemed to go quite smoothly, apart from them telling me that the passport photo I uploaded looked as if my eyes were partly closed. I explained that this is how they always are and I can't open them any wider, without it being uncomfortable. Don't these people make allowances for old age, for goodness sake!  Bloody silly computer I expect. Anyway it let me continue,with verification, sent off, for their scrutiny. Just have to send documents they ask for now. I expect it will take ages but I'm not in a rush.

Had a lovely birthday meal out, Saturday night with friends at The Peking Palace. I tried everything apart from squid - didn't much fancy that. The duck was lovely though.

Then on Sunday I had a lovely roast dinner round my youngest daughter's, so well spoilt. She and Tom bought me some gorgeous presents too.

Just one person missing from all this...he would have enjoyed it all too.
xx
❤

Sunday.

I have a feeling I won't sleep very well tonight.  I watched the finale of Les Miserables.  I have not read the book by Victor Hugo, so don't know how faithful this interpretation is, but anyhow, I really enjoyed it, especially Dominic West's superb performance.  Such a sad ending though and of course it reminded me of my own recent loss.

Some days I feel fine and cope very well. Other times I  miss Paul so much, I just want to be on my own to cry, on and off. Today is one of those days.

It will be my 77th birthday on Thursday and we would probably have celebrated it, by having a meal in Paul's Cafe.  How I miss those ordinary, simple little pleasures.

I still can't help thinking that if that nurse practitioner had done an ECG, she may have picked up an irregular heartbeat and he might have got treatment sooner. It's no good beating myself up over it though, as nothing will bring him back. I can't rewind the last few months - I wish I could.

To use some well worn platitudes, I will have to learn to live with it and hope time will heal my broken heart.

I downloaded an app and got some of my photos printed. I have framed one of our selfies, taken on holiday, plus the last ever photo of Paul that I took, with him sitting on a bench on the village green in August last year.  He looked so relaxed and well in that snap - hard to believe then, he only had months to live.

I miss you my love xx